So, It's Been A While...
Wednesday, October 8th, 2025
Two years and eight months...that's the last time I wrote a blog post for this website. To say that my life has changed would be an understatment. Not only did my last two living grandparents pass away, but I also went through a divorce earlier this year. Things that once seemed like permanent fixtures to my existence have since vanished, leaving behind only ghosts and memories. My mental health spiraled to a point that I had hoped to never return to. The substance abuse issues that I had been keeping at bay for years began to rear their ugly head again. All I wanted was to be numb to my existence, to escape from the reality that I had created for myself. One where my wife asked for a divorce. One where I wasn't sure who my friends were anymore. One where death seemed like the only way out. Thankfully, the last four months things have been turning around. I can't pretend that going through the divorce wasn't the most painful and stressfull experience of my life so far, but I can say that it was what I needed to start getting my shit together. Nothing is quite a catalyst for change than the end of a relationship.
There are far too many events to cover from the last 32 months, so instead I'll just do my best to give a brief update on where I'm at and what I'm doing now. Hmmm...where do I even start? Well, I guess I've been doing more consistent streams on my Twitch channel this year. Started playing modded Stardew Valley, which is quite a good time. After several years of playing the game on and off I am finally going to complete a run! There are only a few more things I need to complete the Community Center, after which I'll be working on getting married to Sophia, a character added from the Stardew Valley Expanded mod. It basically adds a whole new game to Stardew...pretty crazy shit. Having the mods is super nice, especially the look up anything, which allows you to hover over well..anything and hit the F1 key to get a ton of info about it. Love QoL stuff like that. It is nice to have a go to game for chill streams. Stardew is perfect for that.
I've also been working on a ton of music. That's something I'll be adding to this site in the near future too. There was a decent period of time where my musical project, Fallen From the Stars, wasn't really my main focus, but that has changed. You can find pages on YouTube and Instagram now and I've been churning out music like crazy. Last year I put out my first full album for the project, Eternal Equinox, as well as the Aural Heirlooms EP earlier this summer. Then I have another EP out on Friday titled Noise Vacuum, followed by the ingaugural stream on the FFTS Twitch channel. All of the hype! Plus, there's even more music that I'm working for my next full album. Sometimes I just can't stop making things and it turns out the year I get divorced is one of those moments. Who knew?
To wrap things up here I'll just mention how happy I have been in general. My mental health has been on the upswing since June, even if it isn't always at an all time high. I've been learning how to manage my panic attacks and do things for myself that promote a positive attitude. I'm setting boundaries without letting myself get too worked up. I'm removing myself from situations where I know I can't handle what is currently going on. I'm creating habits that counteract my regular patterns. I even got myself back into therapy and started going to ecstatic dances. Shit, that's probably what my next post will be about. Those are my fucking vibe these days. And more people should know about them. What they are, what goes on, how the started, etc. Might even do a little interview of my friend who faciliates them...my brain never stops. I can't wait to share more with everyone out there who actually reads these blogs. There is so much more to talk about! Hurray for experiencing life and all of its wonders!!!